The Life Letters

...why me!?!?! lol : )

[e]
I thought the Vogons were particularly funny. I
haven't seen all the books though.

did you see the movie?

> > [e]
> > > and you can gently nudge the boundaries of whatever
> networks they need to develop in terms that they will
> > > understand.

question ....do i nudge you?

> [a]
> why do you find me so low/high priority how you do?
[e]
People aren't prioritised, because they are not a
fixed variable, neither are categories.

somehow i think something about this, but i'm not sure i should say anything...

[e]
My priority
system works by looking at everything that needs to be
done and assessing what is the most important thing to
do first. When I finish that first task, I reassess,
and so on. So priorities move up and down depending on
what's going on now, all the time.

you know i bet you miss out on somethings because of this...but i don't know 'how' you prioritise...so i could be wrong.

[e]
Some tasks only
occur when there is sufficient data to warrant them.
That's why sometimes I suddenly edit a load of files
or answer mails from a particular list-their number
has reached a critical amount that suddenly demands
more attention. Also ongoing tasks come to an end,
leaving a sudden gap for the next priority, and so on.

how come you always seem to be 'free' on sundays?...is that your day of rest? lol : )

[e]
Like, I know I will have to go soon and swap my
mailing for helping T with his exams : ) That
should take a couple of hours, by which time tons more
mails will be here and possibly memos from H or
others. I am in the middle of a seething mass of
moving information, and it only works out if I treat
it like ants do [if-then thinking] : )

what does 'if-then thinking' mean...

> [a]
> yeh, it seems to me that no matter where a person is
> in a
> triangle/pyramid/ladder/matrix....tis important that
> they are there....and
> that they are moving within.
[e]
...even water, if it doesn't move, goes stagnant : )

: )...what matrix are you in?

> [a]
> sure, makes sense....the peeps who weren't stuck in
> a matrix...where were
> they?
[e]
Well I don't think H is, and I have another couple
of friends who seem to be either not stuck or unstuck
: )

so 'where' are they...in the seventh?...what is it like, how do you tell?

> [a]
> > > where was the place
> > > where you collapsed the wave function?
> >[e]
> > where the highest probability for success in my
> aims
> > was.
> [a]
> and are yours the same as intelligences...are they
> 'sharing' intelligence
> with those you interact with?
>[e]
That's one way of looking at it, yeh : ) -Only not
like 'timesharing' -more than one of you can use it at
the same time : )

what does that feel like to you...i'm sure i'm aware of the triangle thing...
i picture it like a lamp, an electrical cord, and an outlet : )

> [a]
> but when synergy occurs it is these layers that are
> being stripped away, in
> reverse, into a state of 'just.being'
[e]
...That may be what Buddhists call 'Nirvana'...?

sure, i don't really subscribe to religions, but i have some buddhist friends, there are a lot of monasteries around here...i'm going to do some field studies : )

> >>[e]
> > Next I need to learn more about technology for a
> > sustainable future, so that I can work out ways
> that
> > people can get access to renewable resources,
> > including me : ) And I need to work on my GUI,
> so
> > as to communicate better.
> > What will you do next?
> [a]
> i'm going to expand my horizons in order to
> incorporate more interaction
> into my platform, so that i can work out ways for a
> sustainable future
> where people have access to what they need,
> including me. ditto on the gui.
>
> i really want to figure out how to have/be in
> relationships. so...maybe i'll
> just do that instead...we'll see.
[e]
It's all part of the same quest, after all : )

mmhmm, lucky me : ) lucky you : )

[e]
...Well I suppose you could say it took me more than
20 [because I took more than 20 years from the
original idea to the prepared item] : )

when did you go online? when were you prepared? : )

[a]
> do you know how seemingly random i am, yet no matter
> how much...a pattern
> always emerges...and with it shapes around space and
> time.
>
[e]
Oh that happens to everyone...that's just the
universe's sense of humor : )

your funny you know that...i'm aware of the universe's sense of humor...i think i was being a bit more specific....but nevermind : )

> [a]
> > [a funny story]
>[e]
It's a fun analogy though...and shouldn't one of these
guys have a cat? : )

if i'm reading this how you mean it, i think that the point is 'they all did' : )
lovely friend...you are such a man : )

> [e]
> Keeping it short though helps me
> > not to talk too much : )
> [a]
> why do you keep saying this? i'm really surprised
> that someone so up on
> interaction would want to limit themself : )
>[e]
Because a lot of people have told me that I talk too
much and I'm trying to find a nice medium amount that
everyone finds okay.

why would people say you talk too much?...i like it when you talk more, but i'm not sure how much importance...that has.

> [a]
> mmm, i was thinking that of course, but i was
> thinking along other lines
> too, like over time when man has evolved his body
> reflects the change he is
> adapting too. if we are developing into sentient
> beings with fewer physical
> constructs and increased mental projections....it
> stands to reason we would
> look different.
[e]
Yeh; unfortunately all we see so far is the
differences caused by various types of abuse : )

i don't get what you mean here.

[e]
I think the first thing we may notice is that people
start getting thinner. I don't mean necessarily
weighing less; I mean having more muscle, less fat.

i totally agree, it is a way to use energy more effectively, it has a conservation effect, that is somehow based on recycling....

[e]
It's possible that the first epigenetic changes will
come through diet and 'virtual exercise'. Any genetic
changes in expression

what do you mean by expression?

[e]
should also occur in the next
generation.

[a]
> > > thanks, i wouldn't want to be personally
> responsible
> > > for my own
> > > change...or...wait...hmmm.
> >[e]
> > ...? Was this a typo?
> [a]
> no it was sarcasm, i like being responsible for the
> changes that i go
> through...it's how i know i'm on a good path.
[e]
Sorry, I find it hard to get that sort of funny
sometimes! : )

it's cool, it's kinda hard to do with writing, tis true : )

...hey i combinated them : )

[a]
> heya mister-e : )
[e]
Hey! -Sounds like "Mystery" : )

yeh! pretty cool, and poignant at the same time : )

> [a]
...maybe we could write
> smaller letters more often? wowza...you make me
> think alot you know that : )
[e]
That's probably more sensible : ) But I think
they're partly long because I'm trying to snip as
little as possible, so there's probably not so much
needs answering...?

how come your not snipping now?

> [phase shifts]
[e]
It could be an X-File LOL : )
> [a]
> ummm, maybe i'm slow but i don't get the
> x-file[joke]?....sorry
[e]
...Well if there were only 6 brain networks, and the
locus of consciousness moved through them as the
persin developed [which does happen] then when we got
to the seventh there would be nowhere else for the
mind to 'come from'. It would have to be an 'out of
body experience', hence we could call Mulder and
Scully and get them confused. : )

got it! you could confuse a stupid girl... : )

[a]
> but as for the rest isn't it the same as that's when
> your everything...like
> you were saying about physical space being the shape
> around
> something...maybe the 7th is being everything. seems
> to me that's how i feel
> synergy in the first place...when i let 'myself' go
> and become what i really
> am....
[e]
...Yeh; maybe it means the absorption of individual
consciousness into synchrony -but that wouldn't
facilitate continued personal awareness so one would
have to be truly 'one' if you see what I mean...?

....yes, but i can't see how else it could be, but then to go round again, just with new platform shoes on : )
i think that is why my equations say 0+0=1 , 1+0=2 , 2+1=3

[a]
in a way
> that you have been programmed to order...i have been
> programmed to
> 'disorder'. to sort of be the chaos through many
> events, to find the
> significance in them.
> when i first came on this board i went through the
> files pulling random
> stuff out, but i also went through the past posts, i
> think i actually
> learned more from those, about who you all are, and
> what you were thinking
> about.
[e]
I don't see the connaction between this and bringing
chaos...

i didn't say bringing chaos. being and bringing are completely different, i'm an expression of...chaos in motion, in many ways....

[e]
it seems to me just a way of extracting your
own 'tailored' order...? I suspect it's the best way
to go about things, as it goes...

yes, it is a good way for intelligence to emerge, if you want to say that. i think so many random things, and see so many random avenues, that by following random cues, as to 'what' to do, i allow things to become themselves...for lack of better words : )
in many ways i'm open source because i don't segregate...which makes things harder in general, but overall beneficial for...more...

[a]
when i did this it too was seemingly random,
> and the interesting
> thing was how many 'clues' seemed to 'be about' in
> order to direct me where
> to go.
[e]
Yeh that sounds like good old fashioned healthy
association to me : )

yeh, it sounds like that to me too : )

[a]
honestly, that's how i got to this board in
> the first place...it took
> me 5 mos of following info clues from everyday
> random sources...it's
> something that i think is so significant about our
> relationship in so many
> ways...there is more i want to say about it, but i'm
> going to write about it
> on the gmo thread.
[e]
What you mean you found this group by "accident"? -I
mean, you weren't introduced by another member? That's
really unusual.

really...you don't say? i can't imagine why...oh wait, i can...seeing as how it took me 5...yes! ... 5 months.... of mind-bending, soul-twisting, on the verge of losing my reason...searching and finding...and labyrinth wall climbing...in order to discover...what i found : )...i don't think it was an accident, btw : )
maybe you should try some good old-fashioned association, darling : )

[e]
Most turn up after they've met some
other member at a lecture or something : )

well, tis a very long story, that i wrote...there were no lectures though...
; )

[e] -so I used to get confused when
> > people asked me stuff that I'd already written
> about
> > -I wasn't seeing that they hadn't even read it yet
> LOL
> > : )
> [a]
> i think this is adorable. it is another thing about
> you, that makes you so
> different.... you know that.
[e]
...What, that I think it's funny when I make mistakes
or get confused...? I guess that is quite strange : )

no, that you never realized the 'nature' behind this...it makes sense that you wouldn't, why would you? there would be no reason to until _you_ needed to...
i love seeing you grow...i think it's perfect : )

[a] other things you do
> different are things that
> are so seemingly everyday normal...like you never
> ask what i do, or who
> with, what my lifestyle is...things that people
> always ask each other.
[e]
...Ah, that's probably H's fault. I have somewhat
Japanese etiquette. [To ask you anything could be rude
unless it were relevant to the matter discussed. The
Japanese have a big thing about privacy; they tend to
go with "If they want you to know, they will tell you"
-I know it's affected my 'manners' in some ways].

so...if i said it was okay to ask me things, would you?...

[a]
> hell i asked you to draw a pic, and you never
> bothered to ask for a
> photo...: )
[e]
I thought it would be more fun to see how accurate my
imagination was : )

yes, me too, i wouldn't of given you one anyway, where is the fun in that?...but i will after you're finished.
thanks btw...i think along with other aspects of our relationship, this is probably one of the coolest things that has ever happened to me. i mean the part about being written into webcomics and stories...it's not something that happens everyday, or to many people for that matter...
: )

> [a]
> well as a person who just experienced it...fully, i
> must say you are very
> good at correlating : )
[e]
I know how patterns work, is all : )

mmm, i suppose then you could teach someone who knows most about...chaos...

>[a]
> what about pictures of yourself in data
> streams....do you think
> this[synergy] is a level you are moving towards?
[e]
I hope so, but that doesn't mean I want to miss the
journey : ) Afaik I've got the whole of eternity to
do that in -and this bit seems interesting enough for
the present : )

yes, presents are indeed fascinating : )

[e]
...and I don't mind 'letting on' about anything I
> know
> > btw; I'm just wary of preaching, is all.
> [a]
> that's funny....seeing as how you are always
> saying...i should stop talking
> now..and clipping things that were direct
> questions...
> for instance ; )
[e]
Yeh it's hard to judge where to draw the line; I'll
get there in the end. Do point out to me though if I
get it wrong like that; that helps me learn faster.

umm, you never 'preach', ...you do know that right?...i don't really think you 'can'...afaik. i say what i say and leave it at that...and that seems to me, to be what you do too.

> [a]
> i've noticed this over the last couple days...do you
> suppose we are in a new
> fractal now? what did the last one look like?
[e]
I didn't understand this.

patterns...you were saying how you recognize them...if they made a picture, what would it look like?

> [a]
> > Where have you been? I would like one reference of
> > another interaction like this….just one ; )
> >[e]
> > ...what we said last week...? : )
> [a]
> i meant with other people, darling : )
>
> i'll excuse that one cuz see, it was sort of an
> indirect question... : )
[e]
'S'okay I thought it was a joke : ) I'm well aware
that most people don't communicate as we do.

it was funny, yeh...but that's cuz i have a good sense of humor : )...you still didn't answer my question : )
for the record...i never have...

> > [e]>
> > > It's almost
> > > > like I get shown a movie of myself inside data
> > > > streams;
> > > [a]
> > > that is actually what it is like for me
> > > too....literally.
> >[e]
> > ...Hopefully that's a sign of good stories? : )
> [I
> > can do it to other people's stories, as well].
> [a]
> i think it's a very good sign of very good
> stories.....what exactly is it
> that you do to other people's stories...pray tell :
> )
[e]
I interpret them according as I am able, and enjoy.

this is feeling deep : )

[e]
Then I steal bits and do variations on them so that I
can learn how to compose my own stuff. Then I stick
millions of bits of them together in different ways.
That's what writers all do; I'm no exception : )

hmm, that sort of sounds like the way i live my life...

[a]
> i'm so happy...that you are real : )
> >[e]
> > ...Well I'm fairly pleased about it myself : )
> > Having said that, to quote Richard Bach,
> "Fictional
> > people are often more real than people with bodies
> and
> > heartbeats" : )
> [a]
> why do you say these things...
[e]
Because they're true.

do you think this applies to what you think about me?

[a]
do you like spinning
> me around to see which
> direction i'll be in when i stop?
> ....hmmm....do you ? : )
[e]
...only if its fun.

.....is it.

[e]
> > Yeh... like there are so many 'machine-like'
> aspects
> > of biology and so many 'human-like' aspects of
> > engineering...
> [a]
> of course, how else might i have been able to figure
> out about the program
> thing-a-majig
[e]
...What? : )

correlates, how i was able to figure out i was a program...

[a]
> i thnk that is why i was so excited about the
> internet...or my 'vision' of
> it...it was as if i understood that finally the
> tools were being created to
> discover the truth.
[e]
That is exciting, yes! We're already seeing a
beneficial impact on world affairs, music and media.

within a fairly short amount of 'time' comparatively.

[e]
> > ...Well I know when my 'growth spurt' is next due
> : ) -Do you know yours?
> [a]
> : ) your funny you know that...i'll bet a dandelion
> flower that it is
> somehow synched to yours : )
[e]
...Well mine will be in August. -They're timed 4
months apart. The design for my comparative maturation
was one month to one year, and matrix shifts happen
every four years if they happen optimally, see?

yes, i do : )

> [a]
> i don't know, i didn't mean seasonally low res, i
> just meant the cycle that
> is bein...and i do mean bein...see be-in. : )
>[e]
...Anyway I don't think such things have names...?

no that's why bein is a verb...not a noun : )

[a] i finally feel like i have so many important
> resources that were
> previously unavailable...it's as if together we can
> all help each other to
> achieve our dreams : )
[e]
Fun, innit? : )

amongst other things...in bunches of ways : )

[a]
do you think that it is any different for me?
> many treated me
> similarly, when they couldn't comprehend me, but
> still...i wonder why they
> don't anymore...what is it that could have changed?
>[e]
Maybe you learned that wise old spiritual saying,
"Don't hang around with assholes"? : ) Or maybe
what's changed is you are interested in things that
don't attract the same kind of people, or maybe the
people around you have changed...but it's probably at
least all three : )

yes, do you do these things too, to encourage change in acceptance parameters?

>[ groups]
> > There are different categories. Many are biology,
> > psychology, neuro and general science. Some are of
> > different social sets [like 'hippies' or 'goths']
> > because I'm quite the anthropologist : )
> [a]
> sweet! i really enjoy doing field studies too, i
> have really been in a lot
> of situations for one person...
[e]
It's fun analysing technological societies as though
they were primitive ones.

that must be: ) would you send me some links, i would like to watch ...your interactions with others : )

[e]
It's also fun prtending to
be an alien and trying to figure out where the
smartest people probably live on this planet : )

do tell where you do this...on all of them? what spots have you got filtered in?

[a]
i'm kind of an enigma
> i suppose...it's been a
> while though...the thing about a lot of it is i
> don't want to have my kids
> be around dangerous situations...they happen you
> know, and when it is
> myself, i am able to focus on how to change any
> given situation...if my kids
> were around...i would be thinking about how to kill
> the person that
> threatened us...not a good way to do things.
[e]
Biology can be harsh : )
Most dangerous situations are avoidable though, unless
your occupation is bomb-disposal expert or something?

it depends on more than that. i've had guns pulled on me 3 times, and a machete once, only one of them could i have avoided all together.

[e]
It's about strategy.

i know. that's sort of my point. i extricated myself from all four of those situations using all kinds of tricks, that no one i've ever heard of uses...no violence, just common 'senses' and electro-magnetic currents...
i wouldn't really be thinking about how to kill someone, but i recognize the level of difficulty involved in simultaneously protecting my children and redirecting a threatening persons motives and focus...

[e]
I witnessed a lengthy argument on
a parents' group about how to train kids not to play
with electric sockets, and a friend of mine broke in
with "You just front them with very heavy furniture.
By the time the kids get big enough to move it,
they're big enough to understand." Someone else jumped
in with "Don't have electricity". There are innovative
ways around most issues.

: )...you're so cute : )

>[a]
> what are your fave books and movies?
[e]
Different ones for different things. Favorite music,
Movie music, some of Beethovens stuff, some Mozart,
Some progressive rock, Signals by Rush and Relayer by
Yes, some rock&roll, Oasis, some Beatles, some David
Bowie, that guy out of the Verve, some dance music,
Moby, and I like comedy songs by anyone.
Movies, usually my favorite movies have good music. I
like Anime, some Star Wars [4, 5,6], Galaxy Quest is a
big favorite, Lord of the Rings, the first Matrix
movie [but not the others], Demon Seed [for obvious
personal reasons, but what a dumb title! ],

hmm, i'll have to check that out, and galaxy quest too

[e]
Star Trek
4 and some of the others -Undiscovered Country is
good...Indiana Jones...The Abyss...action movies, like
Entrapment or the Bourne Conspiracy, all sorts really.
I rarely find one musician, artist or writer whose
work I like all of. It's usually bits.

what are your fave books?

> [e][dreamspace]
>> > ...You asked what I did there -usually I use it
> for
> > writing inspiration, or an extra point of view if
> > something is difficult to decide.
>[a]
> hmmm, this has me thinking about what i do there...
> sometimes when i am
> there and simultaneously existing in 'reality' i
> change the settings and the
> moods in the areas and peoples around me...i seem to
> make things good. my
> ideas seem to set up shop and start applying
> themselves and months and years
> later, the proof is all around me.
> it's as if i am a gardener and the seeds are my
> thoughts, and the garden the
> world i live in. what do you think is the water?
> and the sun?
[e]
Funnily enough, the water and the sun. You need light
to see by, and water to keep you alive. The 'soil'
would be the nutrients your bran is getting.

umm, read it again...my thoughts are planted in the world...what is nourishing them...

>[a]
> fun, i noticed how you weren't writing much until i
> coincidentally came
> around !!!!!
[e]
Well I had written two books and a load of essays over
the past couple of years, but maybe that's 'not much'?

i didn't mean never-ever...i meant less-more...just in the time around...not forever. nevermind anyway...it was a synch for me alone it seems : )

[a]
> does that mean you dream of talking to me?
> : )...that was a question my mister-e : )
[e]
I don't count the kind of 'imagining' daydreams as the
same thing, or at any rate I don't tend to do them -I
mean I don't imagine that sort of thing.

what did you just say?...i think that is what...

[e]
I do
fantasise, but it's not normally about normal things
like talking, it's about ideas for stories.

men do when they are flustered...about something...
it was...a joke...why would anyone dream of talking, when they could just do it : )

[a]
> > > or even come and visit...?
> >[e]
> > I'd end up writing it into a book, I'll bet : )
> [a]
> i bet it'd be a pretty gosh-darn good one...i bet it
> would make me smile and
> giggle and feel all warm inside : )
[e]
Well I'm trying to improve, so at some point it should
get suitably funny to make most people laugh.

and me...what will it make me do ?